na-realize ko lang...
i feel sad when my mind is idle, when i am alone or when i try to 'think'. i think i should be with people, with friends or just outside. that way, 'thinking' wouldn't become a priority.
i don't like to think. because when i do, i worry. then i'm sad.
shit! yun na nga siguro...
was able to watch an episode of one tree hill kanina then i remembered:
"people always leave"
mej marami na nga sila. kailan kaya yung "...and sometimes they come back" part?
i don't want to wait 'cos it may not come. asa pa.
ayan...nakaka-sad na naman. bye.
uy, bye ah. :(
a merry christmas?
waited for 24 hours before i could make this post just to avoid defying the yuletide spirit. in all honesty, aside from the fact that this day is special and holy (ok, i'm trying to wash my hands here), this season wasn't as merry as i wanted it to be.
i feel sad, because i think i wanted it to be that way. i am sad and i will be sad, but i'll try to move on one day (shet it rhymed!). it's really not about you, it's me. seriously.
it will never be the same again. it's better this way. (kahit naka-cross ang fingers ko, stupid noh?)
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bits of me during the break...
> had our annual cas xmas party. tequila + me = sabog = wasak = hangover. a picture and a video will not only paint a thousand words but will even bring titanic back. the first and last you'll see me that way, hopefully.
> barkada dinner turned roadtrip to tagaytay. kudos to bry, i must say...i'm impressed. something i was supposed to miss but i think i was able to manage. detachment is the answer, or at least trying to loosen some knots. bitterness ito! hehehe!
> last minute shoppings. f*ck the jlo's and all their ways. nuff said.
see you next season...
nakakainis
naiinis ako. kanina pa ako type-erase ng type-erase. pero yun na lang siguro ang sasabihin ko. naiinis ako. nakakainis ka. nakakainis kayo!
i never wanted this. and i DO NOT deserve this. or if i do, bakit ako? dapat ikaw na lang.
i want a new slate. i want to start again. walang ganito. nakakainis talaga.
pero kahit naiinis ako, hindi ko talaga kaya. pero kakayanin ko. t*ng'na ka kasi.
"anger doesn't always mean hatred. but coping up."
